4everAdrian - The Release

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Lyrics: Do You

[Interlude]
Nobody said the world free
Nobody said the sky rain money
So you got to do what it takes
Just got to do it
Do you

[Verse 1]
If you woke up this morning
Felt like not doing a damn thing
Don’t even got a job
Or even out searching
It can be that you’re lazy
If you’re worrying about the next man
How he got his weight up
Even step his game up
To get his bank gigged up
Cause your just wasting your own time
Nobody can stop you from doing you
But your own self

[Bridge]
Nobody said the world was free
Nobody said the sky rain money
So you got to do what it takes to make that paper
Do what it takes to get that paycheck
To keep a roof over your head
Food on your end
To make your ends meet
So you just got to do you

[Chorus]
Cause if you do you and I do me
The world would be cool
Cause we both do each other
So just, do you
If you do you and I do me
The world would be cool
Cause we both do each other
So, do you

[Verse 2]
It’s time to work, not play
Even if you got to cut back on your leisure
Don’t mean you can’t please her
Step out of the club for a minute
To put that double shift in
To get your own weight up
Just like the next man
But still doing your own thing
Cause your bank account will be seeking
They are going to try and peak in
Nobody can stop you from doing you
But your own self

[Bridge 2]
Nobody said the world was free
Nobody said the sky rain money
So you got to do what it takes to make that paper
Do what it takes to get that paycheck
To step your game up
To keep you game up
So it can be up
So you just got to do you

[Chorus]
Cause if you do you and I do me
The world would be cool
Cause we both do each other
So just, do you
If you do you and I do me
The world would be cool
Cause we both do each other
So, do you

[Verse 3/ Breakdown]
If you got a talent
Then make that talent be known
If you got a skill
Then surface that skill
If you got that brain or trade
Then use it
Just get out there
And do something
Rather than nothing
You will see the difference
Trust me…

[Chorus] x2
Cause if you do you and I do me
The world would be cool
Cause we both do each other
So just, do you
If you do you and I do me
The world would be cool
Cause we both do each other
So do you

Friday, December 25, 2009

Double Life Chapter 1 - Double Life

*BEEP* “Dude watch where you are walking,” I screamed out my car window. This crazy ass dude is going to walk in front of my car on a green light. Hold on, did he just flip me the bird? Oh hell no; no one is going to flip no finger at me and get away with it. Jumping out my car, I went and approach him:

Bill Toledo: who the fuck do you think you are

John Stull: John, the one who gave you the finger

Hold up, why do I like the way how that sounds. “Man whatever,” I said as I turned around and went back into my car. I just went on ahead to class because I was running late in the first place. Damn, Professor Bowin has already started his class:

(Bill enters the classroom but then is stopped by Professor Bowin)

Professor Bowin: and this is the perfect example why employers look down on Rutgers undergrads, because they are always late. You will never make it to the top, if you can’t even make it on time.

(Bill goes and sits down, while the entire class watches him)

Professor Bowin: so Mr. Toledo, what do you say as your excuse for being late to my class?

Bill Toledo: You see I was on my way in, and then this guy goes and walk right in front of my car on a green light; like he was crazy or something

(John walks into the classroom and sits down in the front roll)

Bill Toledo: why are you not getting on him for being late?

Professor Bowin: because I am getting on you

Bill Toledo: (sucks his teeth) you need to be getting on him too

Amanda Pears: baby calm down, it’s not even that serious

Bill Toledo: nah, I want him to talk to him like he did to me

Krystal Summing: Shhh… (at Amanda) I want to see him act a fool (laugh)

Robert Martins: Bill, fall back!

(Bill sits back down)

If it wasn’t for my homie Robert; I would have really acted a fool in Bowin class. My girl, Amanda is always trying to keep me out of trouble; and her girl Krystal; I can’t stand that bitch. I let Professor Bowin finish his lecture. I don’t know who this John guy thinks he is; but one of these days, I am going to run him up.

“Shhh… Double Life”

Declaration Of Freedom

The year before ends today
All my angels that has passed away
Rest in Heaven, smiling down
My strength, determination, and courage
Has connected my foundation
Now I can stand tall above
My trails, tribulations, and flaws
Progressing forward with a renewal mind
On the guidance to greatness
Success is close you can taste it
Failure is evitable
History will not make it possible
This is the year of deliverance
The year of prosperity
The year of breakthrough
From bondage, captivity, and struggles
Declare it now
Take your stand
Don’t be afraid
Or easily moved
Remain firm
Freedom is near

Declaration of Freedom

The Abandoned Star Chapter 1 - Introduction

School just let out last week Friday; so here I am sitting in my living room, flipping through the channels to find something to watch. As I was going through the channels; I came across TRL on MTV. They were about to play the number one video of the day. The guy on the T.V. screen name is Carson Daily and he is the one that introduce the video to the wild crowd of teens in the audience. The number one video was Ja Rule ft. Vita & LiL’ Mo, “Put It On Me.” I never heard anything like this before. During the video, I was going nuts because it was the first time I had ever heard anything as sweet as music. After watching the video, I made up my mind that I want to be a singer and make my own music. So the next couple of days, you would find me sitting on my living room floor watching TRL. Doesn’t my life sound very peaceful, but it is not what it seems like. I cannot tell my dad because my older brother, Miguel, told me that the last time dad caught him listening to Biggie; dad threw him out his bedroom window and he broke his foot when he hit the ground. I am about to be ten years old; I doubt my body would be able to handle anything my dad could do to me. So I can’t tell my dad. My mom is very supportive but yet very weak and that truly is no help.

So for now, I am going to keep it to myself. Here I am midway through the summer. All the songs that were played on the TRL countdown, I knew them all by heart. Music had become the number one thing in my life. Night and days, I would dream about being in a studio or on stage performing a song. I started to take longer showers because most of the time I was daydreaming that I was a star. The excitement of my dreams was building me up; it sucks that I can’t tell anyone and also hides it from everyone. You are probably wondering; how I be getting away by watch TRL without anyone spotting me. I do not have to worry about my mom or my brother because they would not mind. My dad gets home a little after five pm, when TRL is done. I think that he might be a little suspicious of me because last week he was questioning me about why I stay in the shower for so long. I doubt my dad will ever catch me because I have been doing this all summer long and still have not yet been caught. If I could rewind the hand of time and take back what I just said; I would because one day my dad caught me, and it got real ugly. When I say ugly, I mean real ugly.

This is how it all happens: I was watching TRL and the new number one song was Ludacris, “What’s Your Fantasy?” Next thing you know, I heard the front door open but I didn't pay it no attention; I thought it was Miguel because he was outside playing with his friends. I looked out the corner of my eye to the left and there was my father. I froze. I felt all five of his finger on my head and you bet it hurt. I found myself curled up in the corner far away from the TV; I didn't know what to do. My dad is the type that doesn’t like to see you cry, or he will give you something to cry for; but if you are not crying then he will assume that he is not beating you hard enough and will continue. How do you cry without crying? I saw my dad saying something, but I couldn't make out completely what he was saying because I was still trying to recover from that hit he gave me. By time my senses came back to me, I realize that he wanted me out of the house. Without even hesitating, I got up and ran out the house.

I went outside and sat down on the steps; Miguel and his two friends, Tony and Rashawn, were playing three man footballs. Tony threw Miguel the ball and he caught it. Miguel notice that I came outside, so he walked over to me, "what are you crying about?" He asked me, "Dad caught me watching TRL and hit me." "You should be lucky that is all he did." Rashawn with his nasty attitude said, "What does the cry baby want," asking my brother. Miguel turned back to his friends and said, "He got in trouble with my father." I was not really like the conversation with my brother and I don't like his two friends. I just want to be left alone, so I decided to sneak back inside. I looked into the living room and my dad was sitting on the couch with his pants down, holding his penis in his hand. He seems to going up and down on it, so I peek around the corner some more and saw two naked females on the TV. I didn't know what to do next, so I just ran upstairs into my room. Should I tell my mom, what my dad was doing?

"Abandoned Star
Free to sing, free to live
Free to believe, free to accept
Free to dream, free to achieve
The Abandoned Star"

Monday, December 21, 2009

Statement

I'm gonna find my love
Love is gonna to find me too
I'm gonna give it all up to trust
Trust is gonna love me too
I'm gonna find love
My love is gonna find me too

I'm Gonna Find My Love

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Gonna Find My Love Chapter 4 - Maybe You Are Right

((ALARM BUZZ))

(Adrian sits up in his bed)

Adrian Thompson: ah shit (grabbing his head with his left hand)

**
Was last night real or was it a nightmare? Plus, I am having like the nastiest hangover right about now. Something just doesn’t feel right.
**

(Adrian looks to his right and sees a note left behind from Vanessa)

Adrian Thompson: so, it was real.

(Adrian gets up and shower and starts getting ready for work)

[Scene changes to Adrian’s workplace/office]

(Adrian is walking towards his corner office, as he is being approached by his secretary)

Secretary: Good Morning Mr. Thompson. Steven from Techno Solution confirmed the deal. You have two new appraisals sitting on your desk that came in over the weekend. Reminder: you have a Director of Board meeting in thirty minutes.

Adrian Thompson: Ok. I got it

Secretary: by the way, someone sent you something special

Adrian Thompson: what?!?

(Adrian opens his office door to see a vase with a dozen white roses and a red rose sticking out from top with a note attach to it)

(Adrian looks at his secretary, wondering who could have sent the flowers, he then walks over to it and reads the note)

Adrian Thompson: (reading) To Adrian, from your secret admirer

**
I can’t believe that someone sent me flowers. Who could it be: I know Mario wouldn’t have sent it because he doesn’t know where I work; I doubt CJ would have sent it because the note would have been slightly different.
**

Adrian Thompson: Who sent this? (looking at his secretary)

Secretary: your secret admirer (smiling as she leaves Adrian’s office)

[Scene change]

(Adrian walks into the boardroom, and greets the other directors)

Adrian Thompson: Good morning

Charles McKinley: Mr. Thompson congratulation on closing the deal with Techno Solutions; that now increases our margins by 25%

Kevin Zacland: Yes, another 3.5mil profit

Adrian Thompson: but we are still not anywhere near our projected growth. So we have to keep on expanding within our region.

Kelly VanDaneil: we cannot afford not to be mindful of our goals

Adrian Thompson: you got a point

Charles McKinley: Adrian, with those two new appraisals sitting on your desk; I know you can do it. With both of them closing a deal, that will put us well over our projected growth.

Adrian Thompson: Kevin, get with our travel agent. We are about to start making moves.

[Scene Changes to Charlie's apartment]

Dealer: yo I ain’t gonna keep on supplying ya, if u doesn’t start forking up some money

Charlie Adams: you know I got you (reaches in for him) take that dick out and let me suck it.

Dealer: go ahead with that gay shit, I want my money

Charlie Adams: you gonna get your money

(Charlie wrestles into his pocket and take out some money; he then throws it at the dealer)

Charlie Adams: dang, a brother was just trying to get some dick

Dealer: yeah, and I am here to get my money

(Dealer picks up his money off the floor)

Dealer: now you can get this dick

(Charlie walks towards him and goes down)

[Scene changes to Frank’s house]

(Frank is surfing videos on YouTube)

(Franks’ phone rings)

(Frank look at his phone then answers)

Frank Utter: Why are you calling me?

Adrian Thompson: Wow, is that how you answer to me?

Frank Utter: Like what I do for you matters

Adrian Thompson: stop giving me the cold shoulders, I am worried about you

Frank Utter: you don’t have any reason to be worried about me

Adrian Thompson: yes I do, anyway, are you home?

Frank Utter: Yeah I am

Adrian Thompson: then open your door

(Frank walks to his front door and open it)

Frank Utter: why didn’t you call and tell me you were coming over

(Hanging up his phone)

Adrian Thompson: I did and you told me you were home

Frank Utter: man whatever; even that doesn’t count

Adrian Thompson: yes it do (and walk in)

(Adrian and Frank walk into his living room and sits on the couch)

(Adrian starts flicking through the channels, while Frank lounged himself across the sofa)

Frank Utter: so why are you worried about me?

Adrian Thompson: because the way you left the den yesterday

Frank Utter: that didn’t worry you because you wouldn’t have called him

Adrian Thompson: how you know?

Frank Utter: you know how Charlie runs his mouth

Adrian Thompson: yeah, we met up but it wasn’t anything special. I am not over CJ

Frank Utter: you can’t just put your trust out there like that

Adrian Thompson: (HUH?) we went out to have lunch

Frank Utter: he could have been trying to get over on you; that is all I am saying

Adrian Thompson: what to have sex with me? Don’t you think I can pick and choose who I want to have sex with

Frank Utter: yeah, until it goes against your will

Adrian Thompson: what are you trying to say?

Frank Utter: I got raped

Adrian Thompson: What!!! When? Why didn’t you tell me?

Frank Utter: man, before we even start talking about this, I got to smoke

Adrian Thompson: you do not smoke cigarettes

Frank Utter: nah weed bro

(Frank rises up the blunt towards Adrian)

Frank Utter: Are you smoking?

Adrian Thompson: No, I haven’t smoked since college

Frank Utter: you didn’t even answer the question

Adrian Thompson: Yes I did

Frank Utter: I know so here is the blunt (handing Adrian the blunt)

Adrian Thompson: (laugh) you think you are slick

[Scene changes to Vanessa and Stephanie’s apartment]

(KNOCK, KNOCK on the front door)

(Stephanie goes and answers the door; she opens the door and see Josh)

Josh Miller: Steph!

Stephanie Tanner: what the fuck are you doing here?

Josh Miller: I got something to tell you

Stephanie Tanner: Boy save it, because I don’t want to hear it

(Goes to close the door)

Josh Miller: I got AIDs!

(Josh screams before Stephanie closes the door)

(Stephanie swings the door back open)

Stephanie Tanner: You got what?!?

(Josh is just looking at Stephanie, doesn’t know what to say)

Stephanie Tanner: (starting to feel sick) before or after me?

Josh Miller: I do not know, I am sorry

(Stephanie grabs her stomach and crunches forward; tears start to roll down her cheeks as she run to the bathroom)

[Scene changes back to Frank’s house]

Adrian Thompson: (laugh) I am high

Frank Utter: Yuup, we’re on Cloud 9

Adrian Thompson: I am not in the clouds

Frank Utter: (chuck) man shut up and enjoy the high

[Scene changes back to Stephanie and Vanessa apartment]

(Vanessa walks into the apartment to find the door open; starts walking towards the bathroom)

(Stephanie is coughing over the toilet, crying)

(Vanessa stops at the bathroom door)

(Stephanie realize that Vanessa is there)

Stephanie Tanner: Josh just told me he got AIDs

Vanessa Vinning: ask me if I care?

(Vanessa walks off and goes into her room; she closes the door and start throwing up)

[Scene changes to Frank’s house]

Frank Utter: Maybe you are right, I can’t keep on letting my past experience block me from reaching who is really meant for me

Adrian Thompson: he is coming, he will be here before you know it

Frank Utter: You know, I have always want him to be you

(BOOM, BOOM)

Charlie Adams: Girl, open the door!

Frank Utter: Did you bring her with you?

Adrian Thompson: No, I swear

(Charlie opens the door and walks in; Terry also enters with his friend)

Charlie Adams: what are y’all two doing up in here (waving his hand before his face)

Terry Boldman: are you guys hungry?

(Places a box onto the table)

(Terry smells the air)

Terry Boldman: smells like you two got the munchies

Adrian Thompson: Pizza, Yummy!

Frank Utter: don’t mind him, he is stupid high

Charlie Adams: so Terry, you not going to introduce us (flickering his eyes)

Jason Goodie: I’m Jason

Terry Boldman: there you go (laugh)

(Adrian and Frank are munching down on the pizza)

Charlie Adams: so how long y’all two been talking

Terry Boldman: none of your business

Charlie Adams: you know you got to keep your life in tack, or them men are just going to run right over you

Terry Boldman: don’t worry about mine, I got this

Charlie Adams: you better listen to me and Jason you better be right for him, or it’s going to be me and you

Terry Boldman: Don’t pay my sister any mind, she is out of it

(Terry and Jason goes and sit down on the couch)

Adrian Thompson: Do you guys want some?

Charlie Adams: girl, there is only one slice left

Adrian Thompson: Oh (looking into the box)

Terry Boldman: I’m cool, we about to head over to Carrabba’s

Adrian Thompson: that is my favorite!

Terry Boldman: You want to join us?

Jason Goodie: You are still hungry?

Adrian Thompson: I can’t join you, I don’t want to be a third wheel

Terry Boldman: you won’t even feel that way

(Terry, Adrian and Jason get up and leaves for Carrabba’s)

[Scene Changes to Carrabba’s Italian Grill]

(Adrian, Terry and Jason are sitting in a booth)

(Jason holds up a shrimp, in front of Terry face; Terry bites into one half and Jason removes the fork and bites into the other half)

(Terry and Jason starts kissing each other, while Adrian watches them in awe)

Adrian Thompson: awww, that is so sweet

(Terry and Jason continues to peek each other on the lips)

Adrian Thompson: I want to find my love

(Adrian’s phone starts to ring)

(Adrian Answers)

Adrian Thompson: Hello

Kevin Zacland: the agent books us to leave tonight

Adrian Thompson: something told me, we would be leaving tonight

Kevin Zacland: the flight is at 11pm, we should get to Memphis by 5am

Adrian Thompson: I will meet you at the airport in an hour

Kevin Zacland: Ok

(Adrian hangs up the phone)

Adrian Thompson: I have a plane to catch (informing Terry)

(Adrian waves the waitress over)

Adrian Thompson: Can I have this to go?

Terry Boldman: So when will you be back?

Adrian Thompson: I don’t know; they want me to expand our market

Jason Goodie: What kind of work do you do?

Adrian Thompson: I am a Regional Director

Jason Goodie: ok

Terry Boldman: Call me when you get there

(Adrian leaves)

[Scene changes back to Frank’s house]

Charlie Adams: so what were you and Adrian over here talking about?

Frank Utter: damn you are noisy, none of your business

Charlie Adams: do you have any more weed?

Frank Utter: what you smoke? (looking shocked)

Charlie Adams: No! I am just making sure you weren’t gonna smoke that mess around me

(Charlie gets up and starts walking towards the front door)

Frank Utter: let me find out you doing drugs

Charlie Adams: Chile Boot!

(Charlie storms out)

[Scene changes to airport]

(Adrian is pulling his carry-on; as he walks towards Kevin)

(Adrian stops right beside Kevin)

(Adrian phone starts to ring)

Kevin Zacland: the gate is this way

Adrian Thompson: Hello (saying into his phone)

[Scene changes to Vanessa’s bedroom)

Vanessa Vinning: (talking into the phone) I am pregnant!

(Looking down onto the pregnancy test)

*** I’m Gonna Find My Love…***

Photo Shoot















Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Lyrics: I Didn't Know

You came and took
My love from me
You shattered my freedom
Can I breathe?
You stopped my assets
You came to break me
But no I won’t fall
Just slip but caught my grip
Cause no I won’t fall
Then I was not mindful
Now my eyes are open

Oh boy I did not know
Love could have cost me
No I didn’t know
I said, no I didn’t know
No I didn’t know

Come on and look at me babe
Cause no I didn’t know
Look what you done to me
No I didn’t know
My own strength
My inner strength in me
No I didn’t know
I had a voice to shout
To build me back up
To who I am today

Oh boy I did not know
Love could have cost me
No I didn’t know
I said, no I didn’t know
No I didn’t know

The toll that you took on me
No I didn’t know
The price that came with your tag
No I didn’t know
The pain and suffering
You had caused me
You took the most from me
I paid it with an arm and leg
So let me be so
I can breathe cause

Oh boy I did not know
Love could have cost me
No I didn’t know
I said, no I didn’t know
No I didn’t know

Monday, December 7, 2009

Gonna Find My Love Chapter 3 - Messy Feelings

Charlie Adams: well aren’t you a bold one mister

Terry Boldman: you passed for a boy for her, wow!

Frank Utter: what do you want bro (not liking Mario directness)

Adrian Thompson: I am Adrian (sounding speechless)

Mario Smith: I did not mean to take the breathe away, but I would sure like to take you out on a date

Adrian Thompson: um…

(Adrian looks to his brothers: Charlie and Terry nodding yes and Frank saying no)

Adrian Thompson: sure!

Mario Smith: here is my card, call me later

(Mario walks away)

Adrian Thompson: guys what should I do?

Frank Utter: nothing!

Adrian Thompson: what do you mean?

Frank Utter: why would you want to, come on look at him. All he wants to do is bang your back out

Charlie Adams: girl hush, you just jealous it can’t be you, (Terry laugh) plus Mario is sexy

Frank Utter: it’s about more than just the look

Adrian Thompson: y’all two fighting is not going to help me out

Terry Boldman: look, do what you want to do, at the end of the day you have to be happy

Charlie Adams: girl call him

Adrian Thompson: yeah, what can go wrong?

Frank Utter: you getting rape (Gets up and walk out the den)

(Adrian watches him leave, with concerns on his face)

[Scene changes to the street outside Stephanie and Vanessa apartment]

(A car rolls up to building and stop with Vanessa and Brian in the car)

Vanessa Vinning: Thank you, but you really didn’t have to

Brian Brown: there was no way I was going to let a girl like you get on that bus. It wasn’t happening

Vanessa Vinning: (laugh) I don’t know why my roommate left me, it’s odd of her but I will talk to her when I get in.

Brian Brown: ok, just make sure you call me later (kisses Vanessa on the cheeks)

(Vanessa gets out of the car and enters the building)

[Scene changes to Vanessa and Stephanie apartment]

(Vanessa starts opening the door)

(A vase is thrown and brakes by the door)

Vanessa Vinning: (screams)

Stephanie Tanner: Why the fuck did you have to do that

Vanessa Vinning: what are you talking about?

Stephanie Tanner: Embarrassing me in front of everyone in the mall

Vanessa Vinning: Are you talking about Brian?

Stephanie Tanner: whatever is name is

Vanessa Vinning: that is not even the guy, you were talking about

Stephanie Tanner: So what, you are not suppose to get no man in front of me

Vanessa Vinning: you are sick (in disbelief)

[Scene change]

**
So, I called Mario started talking to him for awhile. I must admit, I was turned on by his boldness, you don’t find a lot like him around these days. My friends are iffy about the relationship but I think jealousy plays a role, like come on. He is a total eye candy.
**

[The scene is the local den]

Charlie Adams: Are you still talking to him? Hello, we are sitting right here

(Adrian hangs up the phone)

Adrian Thompson: sorry guys

Terry Boldman: you weren’t bothering me. But check it; I am going to talk to him right there. (Look at his brothers) I will check y’all later.

(Terry leaves the table)

Charlie Adams: so what were y’all talking about?

Adrian Thompson: nothing major

Charlie Adams: girl what is the T (demanding answers)

Adrian Thompson: he wants to take me out to eat

Charlie Adams: when?

Adrian Thompson: right now

Charlie Adams: damn he is fast!

[Scene changes to local restaurant]

Mario Smith: there you are (sitting at a table waiting on Adrian)

(Adrian joins Mario at the table)

Adrian Thompson: Hi (looking into Mario’s eyes)

Waiter: I will be your waiter this afternoon; can I start you off with something to drink?

Mario Smith: Yes, can we have a bottle of White Zinfandel

Waiter: Sure, coming right up (and leaves)

Adrian Thompson: Drinking this early?

Mario Smith: I just want make sure the mood is set

(Adrian looks at Mario and bites his bottom lip)

[Scene changes to Stephanie and Vanessa apartment]

(The two girls are tangled up on the floor)

Stephanie Tanner: Do you have any idea what it’s like to be rejected

Vanessa Vinning: I can’t believe you. You cannot call Brian a rejection

Stephanie Tanner: How do you know, I had my eyes on him too

Vanessa Vinning: you are nothing but a slut

(Vanessa then tries to break free, just when Stephanie grabs her by her hair and pulls her closer)

Stephanie Tanner: (screaming) Bitch!

(Vanessa then grabs Stephanie’s hair and start yanking it)

Vanessa Vinning: (screams) get off of me

(Stephanie takes her other hand and slap Vanessa on the face)

(…dead silence… the girls look each other in the face)

[Scene changes to local restaurant]

Adrian Thompson: We used to do a lot of things together, then he just change

Mario Smith: Ok, I see, so what are you looking for?

Adrian Thompson: I really don’t know, I been with him for like 4 years so…

Mario Smith: look, I didn’t mean to cut you off but ever since we been sitting here. All you been talking about was him

Adrian Thompson: I’m sorry, I…

Mario Smith: so you are not over him.

(Adrian did not response)

Mario Smith: I see. Well when you get over him, then give me a call. Better yet, lose my number and I am sure you got this tab too

(Mario gets up and leaves without saying another word)

Adrian Thompson: I am not (looking down)

**
Watching Mario storm out and the thought of my ex on my mind, I need me a drink. Getting over him will be a lot harder than I thought it would be. Just the thought of CJ made me chuck and now I am trying to hold back my tears because I still do love him.
**

(Adrian paid the tab and leaves the restaurant)

[Scene changes to local bar/lounge]

(Adrian walks in and sit down on a bar stool)

Female Bartender: Someone is not looking to good today

Adrian Thompson: Can I get a Long Island Iced Tea top shelf?

Female Bartender: I will make it my special

A Familiar Voice: I didn’t think I would see you here

(Adrian looks at the person but is not really moved by seeing them)

Adrian Thompson: yep. Something to do to clear my head

Vanessa Vinning: Mind if I join you?

(Vanessa sits down and places her drink on the bar)

Female Bartender: Here is your Long Island, want me to keep a tab open for you?

(Adrian nods)

Vanessa Vinning: (talking to the bartender) can I get two shots of patron?

Female Bartender: Someone is looking to get something tonight

Vanessa Vinning: (eyes the bartender) no.

Adrian Thompson: a shot of patron? You are sure going to put me in the zone

Vanessa Vinning: (laugh) it’s the least I can do

Adrian Thompson: anyway, what are you doing here?

Vanessa Vinning: I got into a fight with my roommate

Adrian Thompson: ohh yeah, is everything ok, what happen?

Vanessa Vinning: I don’t want to talk about it

Adrian Thompson: No, tell me, I want to know

[Scene is local bar]

Female Bartender: Here you guys go with another shot

Adrian Thompson: damn, I am sorry to hear that

Vanessa Vinning: It’s ok. I have

Adrian Thompson: Yeah I know that feeling. Try getting over someone that you can’t

Vanessa Vinning: I got it! (Lifting up her shot glass) Let’s toast these shots

Adrian Thompson: to what?

Vanessa Vinning: A new beginning

(The two down their shots)

Adrian Thompson: I am closing out my tab: 2 long island and 3 patron, I am on full

Vanessa Vinning: You and me both (laughing)

(Vanessa tries to get up but then stumble to only be caught by Adrian, holding her up, the two exits the bar)

[Scene change to outside of local bar]

Vanessa Vinning: Look (pointing to the sky) it’s a full moon out tonight

Adrian Thompson: Vanessa (remembering her situation)

Vanessa Vinning: I can’t go home, but can I

Adrian Thompson: you don’t even have to ask (cutting her off)

(Adrian & Vanessa gets into Adrian’s car and drive off)

[Scene changes to Adrian’s loft]

(Adrian and Vanessa walk up the spiral stairs to his flat)

(Vanessa looks around and is amazed by the layout, structure and framework of Adrian’s loft)

Vanessa Vinning: This is where you live?

Adrian Thompson: Yes, do you like it?

(Vanessa then glides her finger along the marble frame of the fireplace, while looking at the artwork on the wall, she then turns her head)

Vanessa Vinning: Yes, it’s beautiful

Adrian Thompson: (smile) thank you

(Vanessa eyes just glister in enjoy, as she makes her way back to Adrian)

Adrian Thompson: You can sleep on my bed; I’ll sleep on the couch

Vanessa Vinning: (smiles) its ok, you can sleep on the bed with me

(Adrian then starts to undressed himself; Vanessa walks over and stops him)

Vanessa Vinning: I got this

Adrian Thompson: You…

Vanessa Vinning: Don’t say nothing else

Vanessa resume in taking Adrian’s clothes off, pulling his shirt over his head, as one hand sweep down his body to start unbuckling his pants. Adrian stands there, watching Vanessa as she slowly but surely undresses him. Adrian then steps out of his pants to get pushed onto the bed. Vanessa jumps on top of him with her legs separated. Adrian opens his mouth; Vanessa put one finger in front of his mouth and shakes her head no. Adrian place his hands on her hip, Vanessa takes off her shirt. Adrian leans up and kisses her between her chest, and Vanessa heads fall back, she then takes her hand and run them thru her hair, putting her body into motion. Adrian then continues kissing Vanessa on the chest as he reaches around to undo her bra, succeeding, he then stick his tongue out and creates a wet line. Adrian clinches his lips together and blows smoothly on the line, sending shockwaves into Vanessa’s body. Vanessa then grabs Adrian, digging her fingers into his back. Adrian then picks Vanessa up and turns her on her back, kissing down her body. Vanessa breathing is starting to get heavy, as Adrian pulls her panty off her toes. Adrian then licks his lips and then licks his way down from the toes. Vanessa then grabs Adrian’s head and guides him with her body being shot back as satisfaction please. As Adrian twirl, twist and flip; Vanessa grasp onto the pillow, shooting both legs into the air. Adrian looks up at Vanessa and start climbing towards her; he then lowers himself and slide right into her. Adrian rolls them over, still inside, and Vanessa grabs onto Adrian’s chest as she continues to ride. From the feeling inside, Vanessa grabs herself as it fit her right. Vanessa opens her eyes, looking down at Adrian, leans in and kisses him on the lip. The two kisses each other with such strong affection. Adrian places Vanessa on her back again and arches his body up. The two grabs hands, Vanessa then turns her head and look out the window unto the full moon. Just as Adrian re-enter, Vanessa turns her head only to see Adrian looking into her eyes. Vanessa sent out a moan on the first thrust, and each thrust afterward was a dip into ecstasy. From the smoothness to the wetness, Adrian started to bust, so he pulls out:

Adrian Thompson: Ohh SHIT!

Vanessa Vinning: What?!?

Adrian Thompson: Nothing

(Tired, Adrian collapse back onto the bed)

**
Damn, that felt good.
**

*** I’m Gonna Find My Love…***

Lyrics: Writing in My Bed

Verse:
You got a Home
You got a Love
Now let me take my breathe
You got a space
Now come on and take your place
On this page
Right In my arms
You got me writing in my bed

Chorus:
Between my arms
In this book
I write the things iheart
So I am writing in my bed
On this page
Where my option lays
You got me writing in my bed

Verse:
On your chest
My options lay
On your heart
My head rest
On the beat
You got me you see
I’m writing in my bed
Our memories
Are written

Chorus:
Between my arms
In this book
I write the things iheart
So I am writing in my bed
On this page
Where my option lays
You got me writing in my bed

Verse:
From your eyes
I see you crystal clear
From your glare
I stand and stare
With rolling tears
Love within year
I am writing in my bed

Chorus:
Between my arms
In this book
I write the things iheart
So I am writing in my bed
On this page
Where my option lays
You got me writing in my bed

Verse:
From your weight
You fit my size
There is no escape
From this love triangle
You press the limit
Like no one else before
From the numbers
To only You
You got me writing in my bed

Chorus:
Between my arms
In this book
I write the things iheart
So I am writing in my bed
On this page
Where my option lays
You got me writing in my bed

You got me writing in my bed

[VAMP]

Gonna Find My Love Chapter 2 - Letting Go

[Scene changes to Momma’s house]

(Adrian and Momma are sitting around having breakfast)

Momma: Boy, I been told you but you don’t listen

**
Yeah that is momma, Angela Benson. You got to love her, she has your back through thick and thin; and there when no one else is there. She has been there for me, ever since the break up. Living this life, gosh, my world has crashed down. I mean I put so much into it, yet my love couldn’t be kept home. I was sharing what everyone else was getting. Lord save me
**

Adrian Thompson: Mom

Angela Benson: what is it boy

Adrian Thompson: can you tell me where I went wrong?

Angela Benson: Baby, you are my son and I love you with all of my heart. I know my son, you did nothing wrong.

Adrian Thompson: Mom! (Sensing she is just taking his side)

Angela Benson: If no man can’t stay with you; than he is not worth you. What the Lord gives us, it will not leave us, but what left you, it was just not meant for you.

Adrian Thompson: yeah, I just need to let it go and see what else is out there. (Deep sigh)

Angela Benson: I know what can cheer you up; let me tell you the story “when I met your father”

Adrian Thompson: mom you tell me that story every time we have breakfast together

Angela Benson: I know, maybe you can learn something from it

Adrian Thompson: like what?

(KNOCK, KNOCK on the front door)

Adrian Thompson: I will get the door

(Adrian opens the door, there is Vanessa Vinning)

Adrian Thompson: what are you doing here?

Vanessa Vinning: I have been trying to reach you. Did you get any of my calls?

Adrian Thompson: yeah I did

Vanessa Vinning: have you thought about returning them. I mean I have been worried about you since I saw you on that show

Adrian Thompson: look (getting turned off) if that is what you came here to talk about, forget it. I am in no mood or condition

Vanessa Vinning: no, (cutting in) I just came to check on you, I was just worried, that’s all

Adrian Thompson: you have always been sweet to me, thanks, but why do you do it?

Vanessa Vinning: because I…

(Vanessa is cut off by momma)

Angela Benson: baby who is at the door (sees that it’s Vanessa.) Miss Vanessa don’t you just look lovely

Vanessa Vinning: thank you momma Benson

Angela Benson: girl come on in, I don’t know why Adrian didn’t just invite you in, in the first place

Adrian Thompson: mom

Angela Benson: chile hush, there is enough for her, Vanessa come and let me make you a plate

Vanessa Vinning: Ok

(Angela guides Vanessa and Adrian back into the dining room)

Adrian Thompson: I really need to be get going

Angela Benson: boy you haven’t even touch your plate yet, sit down

(Adrian sits down)

[Scene changes to a local coffee den with open mic]

(Dials a number into his phone)

Charlie Adams: Girl where are you?

[Scene changes back to momma’s house]

Adrian Thompson: (talking on his phone) eating breakfast

(Adrian excuse himself from the table)

{Split screen conversation}

Charlie Adams: don’t tell me you at your momma house crying over that boy

Adrian Thompson: can we say that is old news

Charlie Adams: then can you tell me when you gonna get here

Adrian Thompson: I am on my way

[Scene changes back to the local coffee den]

(Charlie hangs up the phone and look around the den)

Charlie Adams: Terry over here (waving Terry towards him.) Have you seen Frank?

Frank Utter: Right behind you!

Charlie Adams: Girl don’t do that, you scared me

Terry Boldman: where is Adrian?

Charlie Adams: late as always

(All three laugh in unison)

**
Those are my brothers. Ever since I been on low terms, they are always trying to get me out and make me enjoy myself. In other words, keep my mind off of him. I am not saying I am stupid crazy over him but being in a relationship for so long, you kind of forget where to start or how to start over. That is where they come in.
**

[Scene changes back to momma’s house]

(Adrian walks back into the dining room)

Adrian Thompson: I have to go

Angela Benson: (shaking her head) Ok baby (kisses Adrian on the cheeks)

Vanessa Vinning: I should be get going myself too

Angela Benson: Vanessa, you know you are welcome here anytime.

(Vanessa looks at Adrian and smiles)

(Adrian rushes out the house)

[Scene changes to local coffee den]

Terry Boldman: looks like the kids came out to play

Frank Utter: hahaha, you are not even lying

Charlie Adams: why would those boys want y’all? Tell me that.

(Adrian enters the den and spotted his brothers in the front)

Terry Boldman: look who is finally here

Frank Utter: hi sexy

Adrian Thompson: boy stop

(Adrian joins them at the table)

Adrian Thompson: are they having an open mic today?

Terry Boldman: yep, why you got something to say?

Frank Utter: as long as it’s not about him then I will listen to everything you got to say (smiling)

Charlie Adams: (hits Frank on the arm) girl what are you doing? You know you not suppose to talk about him around her.

Adrian Thompson: (laugh) what is up with you calling everyone a girl?

Charlie Adams: everybody is a girl; I don’t have care if it’s a boy or a girl. You are a girl

Frank Utter: well then don’t call me no girl

Charlie Adams: like I said, everybody is a girl. But no one will be more of a girl then me

Terry Boldman: You can hold that, I got a dick and use it well, know that

(Everyone looking at Charlie laughing)

Announcer: I want everyone to put their hands together for a very passionate poetic, James

(Everyone inside the den starts clapping their hands, welcoming James onto the stage)

[Scene changes to the mall, Stephanie & Vanessa are walking out of a shoes store]

Stephanie Tanner: I did not like a single pair of shoes in that store

Vanessa Vinning: girl you just don’t have no taste

Stephanie Tanner: that is ok boo; I got my taste in men though

(Vanessa laugh)

Stephanie Tanner: isn’t he cute (pointing to a guy in the food court)

Vanessa Vinning: girl you need to do your men like you do your shoes

Stephanie Tanner: and what do you mean by that?

Vanessa Vinning: Simple

[Scene changes to local coffee den]

(Crowd cheers James on as he exit the stage)

Adrian Thompson: man he was good

Charlie Adams: I know, he had my blood warm in a heart beat

Terry Boldman: This is not True Blood, he don’t want it (laugh)

Frank Utter: So Adrian, are you going next

Adrian Thompson: no, no I can’t go up there? (Getting shy)

Announcer: Is there anyone else that would like to take over the mic?

(Charlie, Terry and Frank stands up, point towards Adrian)

Announcer: it seems like your crew want you up here, the mic is yours

(Adrian make his way onto the stage where the mic await him)

Adrian Thompson: Hi, I am Adrian. Lend me your ears and take a walk down this hall with me:

“As I walk down this
Lonely hall by myself
Depression covered me
Like coats of water
Holding me down so
I can’t swim above to breathe
The more I walk the lonely hall
The deeper I go in the sea
As I step through the door
God stretch out his hands
For my reach
The winds of hands
Held me, pulled me
Out of the depression sea
And set me free”

[Scene changes to mall Stephanie and Vanessa are inside the food court]

Stephanie Tanner: I am about to go give him my number

Vanessa Vinning: why? So he can do you like the rest of them

Stephanie Tanner: huh? How dare you say something like that (getting hot!)

Vanessa Vinning: you already know you like him, now make him come to you

Stephanie Tanner: ok (getting anxious)

Vanessa Vinning: that will assure that he likes you too

(A guy walks over to them)

Brian Brown: excuse me miss, how are y’all ladies doing today?

Stephanie & Vanessa: Hi!

Brian Brown: (looking at Stephanie) Can you give me a minute while I talk to your friend?

(Stephanie gives Vanessa an envy look and walks away, and Vanessa is in total shock by the hit-on)

[Scene changes to local coffee shop]

Charlie Adams: Girl that was good

(Adrian joins his brothers back at the table)

Adrian Thompson: Thank you (smiling)

Charlie Adams: if you had kept on going, I would have caught the Holy Ghost

Frank Utter: I know, I like a man who are deep on words, just my type (licking his lips)

Terry Boldman: (laugh at Frank) how many time does he have to reject you, for you to understand that he don’t want you.

Frank Utter: man whatever

(Adrian looks up at a stranger, who is looking down on him)

Stranger: Hi, I am Mario

*** I’m Gonna Find My Love… ***

Monday, November 16, 2009

Gonna Find My Love Chapter 1 - Love Is Not For Me

It all started when I thought my boyfriend was cheating on me. He would be running off at unusual times, and won't return my phone calls like he used too. He has been clubbing more often by himself or with his friends. So I was left to just make a phone call. Before I do so, let me tell you about myself. My name is Adrian Thompson, I got a MBA in Finance, currently the Regional Director for a growing marketing firm. So I am always on the go, traveling to different cities to handle business. I have been dating CJ, short for Christopher Johnson, for four years now. Just when I thought that everything seems to be going right, with our wedding arrangement in progress. He is caught slipping:

(Phone rings)

Operator: thank you for calling Cheaters, how can I assist you?

Adrian Thompson: I am calling because I think my boyfriend is cheating on me and I would like for you to investigate.

Operator: ok, let me see if Joey Greco is available.

Adrian Thompson: ok.

(Placed on hold)

Joey Greco: hello, this is Joey.

Adrian Thompson: hi, this is Adrian Thompson and I want you to do an investigation on my boyfriend to determine if he is cheating on me.

Joey Greco: what make you think that he is cheating?

Adrian Thompson: I don't know I am just having second thoughts. I just really hope that he is not cheating. He been leaving all time of hours and don't be home until late. He just completely changed on me.

Joey Greco: I understand. Well you can leave the rest up to me and my team. I will be contacting you later on my finding.

Adrian Thompson: thank you.

(Phone hangs up)

[Scene changes to Vanessa and Stephanie’s Apartment]

(ARGUMENT)

Stephanie Tanner: that's why I can't stand guys, they are full of shit.

Vanessa Vinning: I told you from the start not to date Josh.

Stephanie Tanner: I know you told me, but he had me fooled by the words he told me. Fucking jerk!

Vanessa Vinning: don't beat yourself up for his wrong doing.

Stephanie Tanner: I am not. I am just really mad at him and myself because I really liked him. You know what he told me?

Vanessa Vinning: what?

Stephanie Tanner: he wanted me to have his baby; please he just said that so he can get into my pants.

Vanessa Vinning: Weren’t y'all talking for like two weeks?

Stephanie Tanner: yeah

Vanessa Vinning: girl you need to do better than that, all guys care about is sex, sex, and sex

Stephanie Tanner: guess I have to learn it the hard way. Let's watch TV. I need to get my mind off of him.

Vanessa Vinning: ok, what is on?

Stephanie Tanner: cheaters!

Vanessa Vinning: that is my show, turn it up.

Stephanie Tanner: wait, isn't that Adrian. (Pointing to the TV)

Vanessa Vinning: who is he dating?

Stephanie Tanner: no, who is cheating on him?

Vanessa Vinning: (laugh) you know I have like the biggest crush on him.

Stephanie Tanner: really!?!

[Scene changes to Adrian and Joey driving on freeway inside one of Cheater’s vehicle]

Joey Greco: my investigators were able to trace down Christopher Johnson to gather some information that you asked us to find.

Adrian Thompson: please call him CJ, but did you find something?

Joey Greco: yes.

Adrian Thompson: so he is cheating.

Joey Greco: you know that you don't have to view this information. Do you want to?

Adrian Thompson: (sigh) yes, I do.

Joey Greco: ok, here is what we found out. Three days ago, CJ was seen leaving the parking garage with an unidentified person. Later on they pulled up to a local restaurant. The two goes into the restaurant, exchange conversation and had a couple drinks. As you see they are starting to get touchy and kiss before they leave the restaurant.

Adrian Thompson: oh my gosh! Lord save me (looking really disappointed)

[Scene changes to Vanessa and Stephanie's Apartment]

Stephanie Tanner: oh snap girl, Adrian is gay.

(Vanessa seems hurt)

Vanessa Vinning: all the good ones are gay.

Stephanie Tanner: so, you don't have a crush on him anymore. (Giggle)

(Vanessa looks Stephanie sideways)

[Scene changes to Cheater’s van]

Joey Greco: hold on, I got a call coming in.

(Picks up phone)

Joey Greco: hello, Joey.

(Unknown voice is reporting to Joey)

Joey Greco: ok I got it.

(Hangs up the phone)

Joey Greco: according to one of my men, they spotted CJ over by the skating ring, not too far from here. Do you want to go and get some answer?

Adrian Thompson: ...

Joey Greco: Adrian, do you want answers?

Adrian Thompson: I do, I want to know why.

[Scene changes to Skating Ring]

(Vans pull up to building, everyone gets out. Adrian and Joey enter the building and spotted CJ over by the bar)

Christopher Johnson: baby?!! (Looking shocked) What are you doing here? Who are all these people?

Adrian Thompson: don't baby me.

Ryan Brown: huh? Who are you calling baby?

Gay Onlooker: ohhh girl look, T's are about to start spilling (tapping another onlooker)

Adrian Thompson: so how long y'all two known each other.

Christopher Johnson: look I can explain everything, but just not right now.

Adrian Thompson: no, I am not going anywhere; you are going to tell me right now.

(Joey pulls Ryan Brown aside)

Joey Greco: do you realize that Christopher and Adrian have been dating for the past four years?

Ryan Brown: nah, he didn't tell me anything like that. He told me he was single.

Joey Greco: no, he has been creeping around with you, all along.

Ryan Brown: oh hell no!

(Ryan Brown then runs back over to Christopher, pointing his finger in Christopher’s face)

Ryan Brown: so are you telling me you fucking both of us?

Christopher Johnson: man chill out, don't you see me talking to my dude. Baby look (saying to Adrian)

Adrian Thompson: I can't believe you; I am not going to humiliate myself on TV and mess up my reputation.

Christopher Johnson: I don’t know why you called them in the first place. ((Adrian gives CJ a look and start backing away)) wait, baby wait it's not what it seem, why aren’t you listening to me.

Ryan Brown: oh no, you are going to answer me.

(Goes to hit CJ, but then is grabbed by security)

Joey Greco: let them talk, they are the ones in a relationship, and you are just sideline.

Gay Onlooker: oh no he didn't just say that (laughing out loud)

Gay Onlooker2: she did that! Yes ma’am!

(CJ goes to hold Adrian)

Adrian Thompson: get off me

Christopher Johnson: come on baby, let's go home

Ryan Brown: so, you are going home with her? I am not done with you yet.

Adrian Thompson: huh, you are not coming home with me.

Christopher Johnson: what you mean? (Looking confused)

Adrian Thompson: it's over; when you get there you will find you stuff on the curb.

(Gay Onlookers started laughing. Adrian turns to leave, CJ grabs his arm)

Adrian Thompson: (yelling) get your hands off me.

Christopher Johnson: (shouting) why you can’t forgive me, baby I am sorry.

Adrian Thompson: you should have thought about that before you went messing with that hoe.

Ryan Brown: what you call me, (fighting to get out of security hold) let me go, let me go!

Christopher Johnson: so where am I going to go

Adrian Thompson: I don't care, (roll eyes) right over there (pointing to Ryan)

Joey Greco: Adrian, are you ok?

Adrian Thompson: I just want to get out of here

(Joey escort Adrian back to the van)

Christopher Johnson: I fucking hate you for destroying my relationship. You home wrecker.

Joey Greco: don't blame me because you can’t keep your dick in your pant.

(Adrian and Joey get into the van)

Joey Greco: Adrian, it's all over now.

(Tears fall out of Adrian’s eyes while looking out the window, the van takes off)

[Scene changes back to Vanessa apartment]

Stephanie Tanner: see men overall are just dogs.

Vanessa Vinning: Adrian is really hurt.

Stephanie Tanner: please he needs to stop messing with them fags and find him a real woman.

Vanessa Vinning: I am going to call him.

Stephanie Tanner: huh?

*** I'm Gonna Find My Love...***

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

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