Gonna Find My Love Chapter 8 - Fight

Stephanie Tanner: I hate you!

Corey Patterson: but I didn’t even do you any harm

Stephanie Tanner: you are just like the rest of them

Corey Patterson: Huh?

Stephanie Tanner: you infected man whore; going around infecting young innocent ladies like me

(Security guard approach them)

Security: I am going to ask you to leave; you are causing trouble and disturbing other guests

Corey Patterson: Please sir, I got this (turns to Stephanie) let me take you home, you are too intoxicated to drive

Stephanie Tanner: I can drive myself home

Corey Patterson: getting a DUI is not going to solve your problems

Stephanie Tanner: and you taking me home is not going to solve it either

Corey Patterson: at least you will be getting home safe and no DUI; if I take you

Stephanie Tanner: I guess you got a point

Corey Patterson: thank you; right this way

(Stephanie and Corey leave the bar)

(Stephanie gets inside of Corey’s car)

Corey Patterson: so I take it that you are positive

Stephanie Tanner: Asshole!

Corey Patterson: please keep your voice down

Stephanie Tanner: Look! My life, my future and my dreams are shattered

Corey Patterson: because you have AIDs?

Stephanie Tanner: I am not going to be able to have kids; I hate men; if I was a lesbian, I wouldn’t have this problem (Stephanie makes the vomiting sound) Ewww! I could not like my own kind; that is so fucking disgusting

Corey Patterson: I am positive!

(Stephanie looks at Corey)

Stephanie Tanner: how did you get infected?

Corey Patterson: I was born this way

Stephanie Tanner: What?! But you are still alive

Corey Patterson: Thank God, my parents had good health care

Stephanie Tanner: does that means your parents have AIDs too

Corey Patterson: Yes they were

Stephanie Tanner: how are they now?

Corey Patterson: they are dead; they passed away three years ago

Stephanie Tanner: I’m sorry

Corey Patterson: It’s OK! But tell me how you got infected

[Scene change to Adrian’s loft]

(Adrian is sitting in his office looking at the computer screen)

**
I don’t know. I don’t know anymore. Every turn, every decision and every choice I have made; just turns out to be the wrong one. I am at the point where I just want to be to myself; I don’t want to be bothered. I am going to use this time to make myself happy; doing the things I enjoyed doing even before I met CJ.
**

(Adrian stands up)

[Scene changes to Corey’s car]

(Stephanie’s head is resting on the side of the window)

Stephanie Tanner: Where are we? I do not live this far from the bar

Corey Patterson: I know but since I saw that we got something in common. I thought it would be best for you to spend the night; so we could talk some more

Stephanie Tanner: Hell No! I do not know you; take me home!

Corey Patterson: you didn’t even know the other guy but you gave him a chance

Stephanie Tanner: that was different

Corey Patterson: the only difference now is then you wasn’t but now you are

Stephanie Tanner: what am I going to do? (Stephanie start crying) I know I’ve made some stupid mistakes but it’s not like I can go back and change them

Corey Patterson: Stephanie relax, life is not over! Plus we are here; let’s go inside

(Stephanie looks out the window at the house)

[The Next Day]

(Adrian is walking up to his office building)

(Miguel is walking out of the building)

Miguel Fiske: don’t forget, this is the first time

(Adrian watches Miguel walk away)

**
That was weird!
**

[Scene change to Vanessa and Stephanie apartment]

(Vanessa walks out of the bedroom)

Vanessa Vinning: umm… baby what is that smell

Brian Brown: momma’s favorite chicken and waffles

Vanessa Vinning: did you make it from scratch?

Brian Brown: yes I did (laughing)

Vanessa Vinning: (laugh) the last time I had chicken and waffles was when I went to Gladys’s favorite chicken and waffles

Brian Brown: well you know it have nothing on mommas

(Stephanie walks into the apartment)

Brian Brown: you must be Stephanie; Vanessa told me a lot about you

(Stephanie gives Vanessa a hard look)

Brian Brown: have a seat, I made breakfast

Stephanie Tanner: I do not know you

Brian Brown: I know; that’s why you should have a seat so you can get to know me

Vanessa Vinning: baby

(Stephanie just stands there looking at Brian)

(Brian places a plate of food in front of Vanessa and kisses her on top of her head)

Brian Brown: here you go baby

(Stephanie storm off to her room)

Brian Brown: did I do or say something wrong?

[Scene change to Frank’s house]

(Frank is praying)

Frank Utter: Heavenly Father; I have been having visions; I have been having dreams. Lord, I ask of you to send me an answer; show me the way and provide me with the guidance as I re-enter this world; so that your will may be manifested in my life; in Jesus name. Amen

(Frank stands up and looks out his bedroom window)

[Scene change to street corner]

(Charlie walks up to the trades)

David Bottom: isn’t it that busta

Adam Worthington: yea that’s him

Charlie Adams: I’ve been trying to get in touch with you guys; where have y’all been hiding

Gee Edwards: after this shit you pulled, we aren’t fucking with you

(Markel walks out of the store)

(Markel looks Charlie up and down)

Markel Cell: man, let’s get out of here

Adam Worthington: y’all sagging ass (mocking Charlie)

Charlie Adams: you guys I need the money; you guys can even do it for half the price

David Bottom: haha… what part of no more don’t you get?

(The trades start to walk off)

(Charlie reaches out for them, grabbing onto Markel)

(Markel pushes Charlie)

Markel Cell: do not put your hands on me

[Scene changes to Monte Lounge]

(Adrian pulls up to valet parking)

(Attendant opens the door)

Attendant: Welcome to Monte Lounge, here is your ticket

(Adrian nods as he gets out of the car)

(A car is beeping their horn)

(Adrian looks in the direction of the noise)

(Adrian sees Miguel waving to him)

[Scene change to Vanessa and Stephanie apartment]

(Vanessa is sitting on the couch watching TV)

(Stephanie walks out her room and sits in the armchair)

Vanessa Vinning: I didn’t know you were still here; I thought you were spending the night with Zac

Stephanie Tanner: do not ever mention his name around me again

Vanessa Vinning: are you ok? I know me and you don’t talk much

Stephanie Tanner: just keep his name out of your mouth

(Vanessa rolls her eyes)

Vanessa Vinning: it seems like you got in trouble

Stephanie Tanner: what’s that suppose to mean?

Vanessa Vinning: seems like something went down between you and Zac because you get all jumpy and hot headed whenever his name is said

Stephanie Tanner: Vanessa! I told you to keep his name out of your mouth

Vanessa Vinning: what happen?

Stephanie Tanner: it’s my business and I am not telling you anything

Vanessa Vinning: whatever you say

(Vanessa waves off her hand)

(TV commercial ad advertise: AIDs Prevention Courses)

(Stephanie starts breathing heavily)

(Stephanie screamed at the top of her lungs)

Stephanie Tanner: I HATE YOU!!!

(Vanessa jumps out the couch)

(Stephanie is sobbing)

Vanessa Vinning: Stephanie, are you positive?

Stephanie Tanner: I told you to stay out of my business

(Stephanie curls her fist)

(Stephanie rushes towards Vanessa)

(Stephanie punched Vanessa; you see the knuckles mark)

(Vanessa falls; hitting her left side on the coffee table)

(Stephanie screams; realizing what she did)

(Stephanie jumps back with both hands in the air; over her ears)

(Stephanie turns and runs into her room)

(Brian walks into the apartment)

(Brian sees Vanessa)

Brian Brown: My God, Vanessa

(Brian rushes to her aide)

(Vanessa is sobbing)

(Brian bends down; holding Vanessa head up)

Brian Brown: are you ok?

Vanessa Vinning: I think my water broke

Brian Brown: what happened?

Vanessa Vinning: Stephanie punched me and I hit the coffee table (grabbing onto her left side)

(Brian turns his head towards Stephanie’s room)

Brian Brown: You Fucker!

(Brian starts helping Vanessa up)

Brian Brown: we have to hurry up and get you to the hospital

(Vanessa starts coughing)

(Vanessa stands on her feet)

(Brian takes her right arm over his neck; while is left hand is holding the left side of Vanessa)

(The two slowly walks out the apartment)

(Brian unlocks the car and help Vanessa in)

(Brian runs around and hops inside the car)

(Brian drives off)

Voice: Operator

Brian Brown: I am on my way there now; I have a six month pregnant lady; whose water might have broke

Voice: can this be a false alarm?

Brian Brown: she was hit and she fell

Voice: did you hit her?

Brian Brown: No! (getting angry) you are not providing me with the correct medical procedures for my situation. I have a pregnant lady who is going to need immediate attention when I get there!

(Brian is flying down the freeway)

Brian Brown: why is Adrian not picking up his phone; this is the third time I’ve called him

(Vanessa is coughing)

Vanessa Vinning: oh my, oh my, oh my (breathing heavily)

Brian Brown: baby, just hang in there

(Brian is swirling through traffic)

Brian Brown: Adrian! This is me, Brian; I am calling you from Vanessa’s phone; we are on our way to the hospital we think her water broke. Call me back when you get this or meet us at the hospital

(Brian hangs up the phone)

(Brian pulls into the emergency entrance)

(Two nurses run out the hospital with rollaway)

(Vanessa climbs onto the mattress pad)

Nurse 1: miss I am going to ask you to slowly breathe

(Nurses are rolling Vanessa down the hall; while Brian is following behind)

(Nurse 2 turns to Brian)

Nurse 2: are you the baby’s father?

Brian Brown: No

Nurse 2: then I am going to need you to get in touch with him

(Brian stops; while the nurses continue down the hallway and turn into a room)

(Brian calls Adrian’s phone)

Brian Brown: Adrian man, pick up your phone

(Brian hangs up the phone)

(Brian walks up to Vanessa room)

(Doctor walks out)

Dr. Madonna Philips: it seems like it was a false alarm. But she has been admitted into the hospital tonight; this will give us more time to run testing on her to ensure no damage was done internal to the baby

Brian Brown: Thank God!

[The Next Day]

Voicemail: gurl it’s me Charlie; I was giving you a call to see how you are doing. You know I am in a bit of a holding and were seeing if you could help me out. Gurl call me when you get this.

(Beep)

Voice: Adrian!

(Adrian looks; there is Miguel)

(Adrian turns and get inside of a taxi)

[Scene change to Markel apartment]

Ryan Brown: hold on! What is that on your arm?

Markel Cell: I don’t know

Ryan Brown: tell me

Markel Cell: some dude scratched me

Ryan Brown: when? Who?

(Markel looks at the scratch mark that Charlie gave him)

Ryan Brown: Question. Are you cheating on me?

(Markel gets up and goes to the bathroom to look after the wound)

(Ryan picks up Markel phone and start going through it)

(Ryan makes a face)

(Markel walks back into the living room)

Ryan Brown: what is this?

(Showing Markel a picture of him and another guy)

Markel Cell: what do you think it is?

Ryan Brown: so is this the guy you are cheating on me with; what you thought I wasn’t gonna find out

Markel Cell: I left my phone out so you can find it; I knew you were gonna go through it

Ryan Brown: so are you trying to rub this in my face?

(Ryan throws the phone at Markel)

Markel Cell: why you acting like you are not cheating; like you never did no wrongs; I know all about that incident

Ryan Brown: shit I was paid to do that

Markel Cell: but you still did it

Ryan Brown: yea but I just want to make sure no one is going to take you away from me

Markel Cell: am I still with you?

(Ryan and Markel start kissing)

[Scene change to Terry’s parking deck]

(Terry parks his car)

(Terry is exiting the parking garage)

(Terry sees Nelson walking out the building towards him)

(Terry realize it’s the same guy he saw Dustin with)

Terry Boldman: was sup

(Nelson nods his head as he walks past Terry)

(Terry enters the apartment)

[Scene change]

(BEEP)

Brian Brown: Yo Adrian man, I don’t know what your fucking problem is; I have called you and left several messages and you have not returned one or even showed up at the hospital. You forgot that this is your baby; not mine! You are going to have to show more concerns than this because I am not buying this from you. I am expecting you to be showing up at the hospital later on this evening.

(Brian hangs up and walks back inside Vanessa’s room)

(Vanessa is sleeping)

[Scene change to Momma’s house]

(Angela walks up to the mail box)

(Angela starts looking through the mail and comes across four foreclosure letters)

(Angela walks up to her house and sees a red evicted sign on the door)

(Angela rips the sign off and enters her house)

(Angela walks into her bedroom; throws everything on the floor)

(Angela drops to her knees and scream)

Angela Benson: Donovan!!!

[The Next Day]

(Dr. Philips walks in the room)

Dr. Madonna Philips: Miss Vinning you are good to go home; after running the entire test there doesn’t seem to be any damage done to your baby; you may still want to remain in good hands until the delivery of the baby. Do you have an alternative place to stay until the matter with you and your roommate get resolve? You have my number just in case anything comes up.

[Scene changes to park]

(Terry pulls into parking spot; goes and takes a basketball out the trunk)

(Terry walks towards the court)

Nelson Nelly: I got his dude wrapped around my dick

Dude #1: you mad bold to say that right in front of him

Nelson Nelly: what is he going to do?

(Terry walks past them and start shooting around)

Dude 2: let’s go see if he wanna play a game of hustle

Nelson Nelly: yeah so we can men handle him (laugh)

(Nelson and his friends approach Terry)

Dude #1: do you want to get a game?

Terry Boldman: yeah why not

(Terry realize its Nelson)

(All four of them start playing a game)

(Nelson is playing rough and dirty with Terry)

Nelson Nelly: are you sure you are the one in charge in your relationship?

(After blocking Terry’s shot)

(Dude 1 and 2 laugh)

Terry Boldman: are you trying to say something?

Nelson Nelly: I better not say anything (laughing)

(Terry walks up in Nelson face)

Terry Boldman: if you got something to say; we can clear that out now

Nelson Nelly: you want me to be blunt; I’m fucking your dude

(Terry jerked and swung on Nelson, hitting him in his chest)

(Nelson took a step back and leap towards Terry)

(Dude #2 throws away the ball and goes to break up the fight)

(Dude #1 swung and hit Terry, sending him to the ground)

(Nelson starts to kick Terry)

(Dude #2 pulls Nelson back)

(Terry gets up and punched Nelson)

(Nelson falls to the ground and tried to get up but Terry kicks him in the face)

(Dude #1 punched Terry in the back)

(Cop sirens starts to sound)

(Everyone cleared the scene)

[Scene changes to Brian and Ryan’s apartment]

(Ryan and Markel are cuddled up on the couch)

(Brian and Vanessa walk in)

Brian Brown: you can’t take that to your room

Ryan Brown: do I pay rent here?

Brian Brown: you do but you can keep that stuff to yourself I got guest

Ryan Brown: what does she got to do with me?

Brian Brown: look we had a long two day and the only thing we want is peace, quiet and rest

Ryan Brown: well since you going to your room; I’m good

Brian Brown: man what ever

(Brian and Vanessa go to Brian’s room)

Markel Cell: your bro stay be on the DL swings like he’s trade

Ryan Brown: he’s gonna come out the closet one of these days

[Scene changes to the Den]

(Adrian walks up to the den and sees Terry and Frank sitting at a table)

(Adrian freezes at the door)

(Adrian looks up the street and sees Miguel)

(Adrian turns and leaves)

[Zoom into Den]

Terry Boldman: why didn’t he come in?

Frank Utter: he didn’t even pick up my call

[Scene changes to Brian’s room]

(Vanessa is lying on the bed)

(Brian is surrounding her with pillows)

Brian Brown: baby, are you alright?

(Vanessa nods)

(Brian sits in a chair and watch Vanessa sleep)

[Scene changes to the entrance of Adrian’s loft]

**
I hope they don’t hate me because I have withdrawn myself from them. Vanessa had a false water break; Terry got in a fight and Charlie is begging for money. They need me but I am just being selfish right now. I hope this doesn’t get worst but I need my time away.
**

[The Next Day]

Corey Patterson: Steph!

(Stephanie and Corey hugs; while Stephanie looks down)

Corey Patterson: don’t be ashamed, I’m not mad at you

Stephanie Tanner: it’s not you it’s me

Corey Patterson: didn’t I tell you there is no me in us

Stephanie Tanner: why do you want to be with me?

Corey Patterson: not only the fact that you are beautiful (Stephanie smiles) you got potentials that a lot of people over look

Stephanie Tanner: like what

Corey Patterson: you know what you want

Stephanie Tanner: no I do not

Waitress: my name is Brittany and I’ll be your server today

[Scene change to supermarket]

(Frank is walking down the aisle)

Stranger: excuse me sir

Frank Utter: yes

Stranger: the Lord told me to invite you to our men’s of tomorrow fellowship at our local church

Frank Utter: what time?

Stranger: nine o’clock sharp

[Scene change back to restaurant]

(Stephanie laugh)

Corey Pattterson: it seems like I am getting you to blush

Stephanie Tanner: I haven’t laugh, laugh in a long time

Corey Patterson: and I don’t see why

Stephanie Tanner: can I ask you a favor?

Corey Patterson: sure

Stephanie Tanner: can you help me to do better

Corey Patterson: awww Steph! (moving his chair around to hers) I will do whatever you want me too

(Corey holds Stephanie close to him)

[Scene changes to local church]

(Frank enters)

Stranger: welcome, I’m glad to see you can make it please come have a seat

(Frank walks over and has a seat while the entire class watch him)

Stranger: I am Bill McGraph; why don’t you tell me about yourself

Frank Utter: I just got out of jail

(Two people look Frank sideways)

Frank Utter: but I am a saved man; yes I killed a man with my bare hands; I’ve served time in getting to know the inner. I got away to a place where I can connect with my inner self. And I found love in Jesus.

(The class claps)

Frank Utter: but I find it quite interesting to know that I am a homosexual because there are people who would consider characterizing me as. During my time, I realize that it’s not wrong to have self affects to one self because love is freely given. If one feels attractions and tensions for those type then it’s something they, themselves cannot fix

Jon Morgan: I am not gonna sit here and listen to no fag tell me being gay is ok

Frank Utter: if you think I’m the only up in here that’s gay you need to think twice on that

(Jon gives Frank a look and look around the class)

Frank Utter: just because I’m content with myself and love God just as much as everyone else in here; doesn’t make me any different

Jon Morgan: just because you love God you still a homo

Frank Utter: weren’t you at Hurricane one time

Jon Morgan: yeah on their straight night

Frank Utter: I don’t know which Saturday you are talking about cause every Saturday is a gay night

(Jon stands up)

Jon Morgan: are you saying I’m closet and you taking me out

Frank Utter: no, what I’m saying is that I’m content with me and know what I like and want; why should I have to portrait an imagine that I am not just to satisfy you

[Scene change to Terry’s apartment]

(Door bell sound)

(Terry gets up from his computer)

(Terry opens the door and sees Charlie)

Terry Boldman: what do you want?

Charlie Adams: I need your help, I’m in trouble man

Terry Boldman: what happen this time?

Charlie Adams: I owe somebody a couple stacks; even if I could borrow one; you know I will pay you back

Terry Boldman: why do you owe them money?

Charlie Adams: Terry are you gonna give me the money or not

Terry Boldman: first of all, I don’t get how you are going to ask for money and have an attitude with me

(Charlie rolls his eyes)

Terry Boldman: Charlie, you made that bed so you sleep in it; I’m not joining you in them sheets

Charlie Adams: I don’t know why I asked your ass anyway

(Terry closes the door on Charlie)

[Scene change to train]

(Adrian is on the train heading downtown)

(Train stops at next station)

(People are walking on and off the train)

(Train takes off)

(Miguel sits next to Adrian)

[Scene change to church]

Jon Morgan: I am gonna tell you one last time; you better stop disrespecting me

Shannon Morgan: brother calm down

Jon Morgan: No

Bill McGraph: enough Jon

Frank Utter: Bill I have. I am tired of people sheltering their lives or how they feel to even belittle themselves for who they are. What does it matter to you what the next man think? At the end of the day you have to be satisfied

[The Next Day]

(Terry walks in the medical clinic)

Receptionist: how can I help you?

Terry Boldman: I’m here to do my quarter testing

Receptionist: not a problem, can you please sign in and have a seat

[Scene changes to park]

(Adrian is jogging)

(Adrian continues to run around the park; he runs pass Miguel)

(Adrian stops and turns around)

(Adrian walks up to Miguel)

[Scene change to a prevention center]

(Stephanie and Corey are sitting around a table)

Stephanie Tanner: I have learned so much today, it’s not even funny

Corey Patterson: this was the first place I came to gain understanding

Stephanie Tanner: and thank you for taking me; this means a lot to me

Corey Patterson: does it?

Stephanie Tanner: yeah it shows me that you care about me; I had never had this feeling in a long time since my parents passed away three years ago. You bring that back to me (tears roll)

Corey Patterson: you didn’t know that? I think about you all the time

Stephanie Tanner: I did but the timing is too soon. I didn’t want anything

[Scene changes to Charlie’s apartment]

Charlie Adams: damn man I need that money

(Charlie is talking to himself)

Charlie Adams: how am I, how am I gonna get. I can only hide for so long because he knows where to find me

(Charlie punched the wall in frustration)

Charlie Adams: I am out of here

[Scene change to Stephanie and Vanessa’s apartment]

(Door open)

(Stephanie and Corey walk in)

Corey Patterson: to take someone into your life is like a job literally because your relationships then becomes a business; how we can help each other, how we can grow and overcome the difficulty we face

Stephanie Tanner: I had never seen it like that before

Corey Patterson: but don’t get me wrong, sex plays a great deal on the success and longevity of the relationship

(Stephanie goes and sits on the chair while Corey makes them both a drink)

Stephanie Tanner: explains

Corey Patterson: let’s say for example: we are having a disagreement on something; now we both are mad at each other, so when we go to that bed, I got to lay that pipe down on you to make you for the bad times

Stephanie Tanner: what about the good times

(Door opens)

(Vanessa and Brian enter)

Brian Brown: You Bitch!

(Vanessa and Stephanie’s eyes locked)

(Brian starts rushing at Stephanie)

(Corey jumps in front of Brian; spilling their drinks)

Vanessa Vinning: Brian stop!

(Brian and Corey are roughed up)

Brian Brown: she could have killed your baby; it’s time to knock some sense into her head

(Stephanie starts breathing heavy)

Corey Patterson: I know you don’t think I am going to let you lay your hands on her

(Corey pushes Brian off of him)

(Brian jerked back and punches Corey)

(Corey starts to fall and Brian reaches to punch Corey again)

(Brian slips; falls face forward)

(Corey catches his balance)

(Corey walks over to Brian and punches him in the back of his head)

Corey Patterson: Stephanie has been through some hard times and you better back up off on her.

(Stephanie looks at Corey in awe)

[Scene change to hoe stroll]

(A Bentley roll down the strip and stops)

(Charlie walks up to the Bentley and bend over to the window)

(The window rolls down)

Dealer: You had me searching and looking for you all week. So I take it that you don’t have my money

Charlie Adams: Oh shit!

(Charlie turns to run)

(Dealer fire off)

(Gun shots)

[Scene changes to Rome]

(Adrian pulls up to the restaurant)

(Adrian stops and turns off the car)

(Adrian rubs down his face)

(Adrian exhale)

(The car door opens)

Miguel Fiske: Now do you believe?

*** I’m Gonna Find My Love… ***

The Abandoned Star Chapter 6 - Free To Sing

I exhaled. Today is my father’s funeral and it has not hit me that he really is gone because in the back of my head I can still hear his voice. I rolled over on my bed and looked at the new suit that my mother has brought for me. Since that night, everybody in this house has been real quite and lost of words. For the first time in a long time the house is very quite. I have seen my mom cry about the lost but I think in the long run it will be better for her because she will no longer need to worry about my father abusing her. And now for the first time I can have her full support on my dreams and we no longer have to try and hide it from my father. I don’t know how Miguel feels about this because he was really close with dad. I tried to bring it up to him but he just gets up and walks away from me. I know he must really be hurt but he won’t let me talk to him. To be honest with you, I really don’t want to go to the funeral but I am being forced to. Everyone sat down in their chair as me, my mom and brother sat in the front row. “Family, brothers and sisters; we have lost a man but gained an angel; Matthew Burneaster was a good man and a great father to his family; he has brought two handsome looking sons into this world and showed them what it is to be a man and now, Miguel and Moe, it is now up to you to continue on that path; your father has set you on to be there and provide for your mother. Angela, I know this must be hard for you but you know that you have the church behind you; and we are here to support you through your difficulties because we know when times can get hard. Your husband is now smiling down on you and your family,” the pastor said as he began to sang, “I’m gonna fly away home, I’m gonna fly away home; home to the Father; the maker of heaven and earth; I’m gonna fly; I’m gonna fly; I’m gonna fly away home; I’m gonna fly away home.” My mother starts to sob into handkerchief. One of the ladies from the church placed their hands on my mother back, as I looked on. Miguel is trying really hard to hold back is tears and not to cry in front of everyone. My mother stood up, turned around and faced everyone. “You all know I have been a good woman to that man, I have bend corners until they couldn’t be bend anymore. I have given up my own dreams and my own visions to be with this man because I have loved him and till this day I do. This was not something I was expecting but I know the Lord; will not allow me to go through anything that I, myself could not make it to the end.” My mother starts brawling and it hurts to see my mom cry, I looked over at my brother as tears were rolling down his face. The pastor looked at me and said, “Young man, do you have anything to say?” I looked into the coffin and saw my father. I smiled.

“The Abandon Star
Is Free
I can sing
Is Free
No longer
Abandon Star”

The Abandoned Star Chapter 5 - Killing Dad

“Baby I am so proud of you,” my mom said as tears of excitement rolled her face. I walked up to her and hugged her because I knew I did my best even though I did not win. To me, it’s not about winning; it’s about getting people to hear my voice and letting them know that I have one. Some people came up to me asking me for my autograph but I am not a star yet. Wouldn’t you want to wait until I become one before you ask for it? I signed for them anyway because it feels good to know that people see you so great that they would like for you to give them your autograph. During the entire ride home, my mom couldn’t stop telling me how good I sound and how impressed she was with me. As we were turning into the driveway, my father was standing there. I quickly hopped out the car and went inside because I did not want him to ruin my evening. My parents stayed outside for some time before my father jumped into the car and drove off. “What are you smiling about,” Miguel asked me. “I just sang at the Apollo,” “why didn’t you tell me, I would have gone,” Miguel asked again. I don’t know why I didn’t tell him but maybe next time he can be there along with mom the next time I take center stage. I am just so excited right now. “Oh yeah, Rebecca called for you earlier,” my brother told me. Rebecca is my girlfriend; we have been seeing each other for about three months now and I really like her. She is a fun person to be around. So I headed over to her house and she opens the door. We sat down on her porch and talked for awhile then took a walk down the street. We saw Kevin and his girlfriend, Melissa, so we all decided to walk to Friendly’s and get ice cream. As we were walking back a car approached us going in the opposite direction. My father stuck his head out the window screaming, “MOE! WHAT ARE YOU DOING OUT THIS LATE! WAIT UNTIL I GET HOME; YOU ARE GOING TO GET IT!” We all turned around as the car passed us, it seems like my father was trying to turn the car around but lost control. The car flipped over three times and slide into the light post. Flames were starting to build up. My father screamed out for help, “Moe! Come and help me.” It was either him; or my dreams, so I turned and walk the other way.

“Abandon Star
Someone placed the keys in my hand
Someone left the gate open for me
Someone uplifted the burden
Now can I be free
That Abandoned Star”

The Abandoned Star Chapter 4 - Confrontation

I won!!! Hearing everyone cheering me on as I walk back on stage; my eyes are filled with tears because I feel that much closer to being what I want to be. I am lost in words; I don’t know what to say. Mr. Knows, “Moe I am impressed, have you ever thought about doing opening mic at your age?” I have heard of it but never put it into consideration so I replied, “no.” “The city Apollo is having a youth completion this coming Saturday; I think you should take part. Where are your parents? I would love to meet them.” I looked down, “they couldn’t make it,” really I couldn’t tell him the truth. “I’m sorry to hear that,” Mr. Knows continue, “Here is my business card, use it ok!” I stood there looking at his card as he walked away. It’s time to head home. “Where the hell have you been,” my father screamed as I walked into the house. “I told you I was over Kevin’s house,” I replied. Kevin is my best friend; I was using him as a cover to make it to the talent show. “Didn’t you say you were spending the night, so you think you are all grown now because you are a teenager? Do you know what my father would have done to me, if I did what you did?” My mother stood at the kitchen door looking at me shaking her head. “I decided not to spend the night anymore;” “from this day on, you are no longer allowed to sleep over anybodies house.” “WHY? Mom you can’t let him do that,” I started to cry because I knew that I was going to need to be out of the house on Saturday. I ran up into my room. Every time I seem to be getting closer to my dreams, there is always something in my way, always something stopping me. Why does it seems so hard to follow your dreams but so easy to do wrong. I am tired of being treated this way but I have no time to cry because Saturday will be here before I know it. I took out a pen and paper, it time to write me a song:

Ohhh, oh, oh
Where do I run to? When there is no one to support me
Who can I turn to? When things get out of hand
Ohhh, oh, oh
Where do I?
Where do I-eye?

Look me in my eyes
You see the dried tears on my cheeks
Look me in my face
You see the baggage under my eyes
I’m tried of crying
No body can hear me
I’m tired of being alone
Who is going to stand for me?

Where do I?
Ohhh, oh, oh
Where do I run to? When there is no one to support me
Who can I turn to? When things get out of hand
Ohhh, oh, oh
Where do I?
Where do I-eye?

You are staring at me
Tell me what you see
If you are looking for me
I am lost some where in the

Knock, knock. My mom walks into my room. Mrs. Burneaster, “Moe baby it’s time that you stop living this fantasy fairy tales of yours. I am tired of it.” I put my pen down and faced my mother. Tears of fear were rolling down her cheeks. I swallowed my spit and said, “I know to you and dad this dream may seem a fantasy but to me its reality, I won the talent show at school today.” “You did?!” “Yes mom, you should have heard the way the crowd cheered me on. It was the greatest feelings ever.” My mom stood there like she was having second thoughts. “Baby, you know momma wants you to be happy but as long as your father is around; there’s not much help I can do for you,” my mother pleads. “Mom I don’t care what my father thinks, I have an open mic to go to on Saturday and he is not going to stop me from going.” I think my mom is starting to realize how important this is to me because she said, “I’ll take you!”

“Abandon Star
I must be high in the clouds
Cause everyone is looking up at me
I must be the one they want
Cause everyone is checking for me
The Abandoned Star”

The Abandoned Star Chapter 3 - Shows

Some years have gone by and now I am thirteen. I been a lot more involved with school activities; I have joined the choir team, and also doing musical plays. Pretty much anything that will allow me to use my voice. In a matter of a week, we are having the biggest event going down at my school: The Talent Show. I am stuck between which songs to sing; should I sing Amazing Grace or Jesus Loves Me? Either song I do, I am going to do my best but I want to blow the crowd away with my vocal ability. My family doesn’t know that I will be taking part in the talent show, not even my mom. For the past few years my mom has started to give up faith on me because of the way my father been abusing her. But I can say one thing my mother did was good; she taught me about the unconditional love that Jesus has for me. Knowing that people around me are starting to give up on me, I am starting to believe more in myself and entrusting my dreams in the Lord’s hands. I got to be a star!

“The Abandoned Star
On this day, I’ll stand tall
For this moment, I’ll soar high
Go this mile, I’ll skies the limit
A star reaching the impossible dream
Abandon Star”